Thursday, 31 March 2011
Tracking down the memories4
salam all penat masih terasa. baru sampi rumah. kuar masuk shope store mencari baju anak, tp satu pun tak berkenan. tak berkenan akan harga nya. tracking down the memories.. kebiasaan pd musim bunga di sini, saya hanyut menikmati bunga2 cantik di tepi2 jalan dan di taman.. tulip terutamanya. apatah lagi jika banyak berbagai bagai warna. Bunga2 di sini saya lihat dari sp kecil, lembut dan terang warna kelopaknya. Jarang yg ada bau. Tp, cukuplah utk dibuat hiasan. Boleh juga dibeli di kedai2. Harga dlm lingkungan plg rendah 3pound. Selalu sy beli, letak di dlm vase dan tahan ke 3 minggu. Memang tdk dpt dinafikan, ada saat sy merindui keluarga, rindu yg teramat sgt. Apatah lg bila cuaca semakin panas, seolah2 spt berada di malaysia pula. Ya Allah. hanya Engkau yg Maha mengetahui betapa hati ingin segera pulang. Untuk menghilangkan keresahan, saya keluar bersama keluarga ke tmpt yg menarik dikunjungi. Pilihan utama ialah tempat yg mempunyai persekitaran alam semulajd yg indah. Saya kagum dgn inisiatif yg dilakukan iaitu memelihara kawsan perhutanan biarpun berusia berjuta tahun. Contohnya di Longshaw Estate yg dikenali sbg ancient woodlands. Apabila masuk shj ke kwsn ini, seolah2 berada di kwasan indah berbeza sgt dgn suasana biasa. Satu lg ialah Chastworth House yg mempunyai landskap yg amat indah. Saya terfikir ungkin byk tpt serupa di malaysia yg belum sy kunjungi. Tentu shj suasana nya tidak sama dgn di sini disbbkan cuacanya yg panas. tetapi akan saya teruskan minat menerokai alam semulaji ciptaan Tuhan. till we meet again. see you soon very2 soon.
Wednesday, 30 March 2011
Netball is Me.
Salam all Mendung lak hari ni selepas panas berhari hari. Ini alamatnyer hujan bakal turun jap g. Wiken yg lps merupakan yg terindah. At almost-37 , sy turun semula ke netball court. Kali ini mewakili team ibu2 berentap ngan adik2 pelajar di sini. Mereka ni mewakili team univ..Uhh... Ramai ibu2 yg geleng kepala dgn plan ini pd awalnya. Tetapi tidak pada kami iaitu ibu2 yg berani menyahut cabaran dan tekad menunjukan kehandalan masing2 HAHAR. Akhirnya, kami turun berlapan. Mmg hampir2 cancel! Pd saya pula, ..anytime! Im willing to. Dah le lame benor x pegang bola. Sejak kejadian patah siku tahun lps. Hurmm..ada juga main friendly dgn team ibu2 Cranfield slps sebulan operation, tp tu cuma 1 game jer. Satu lagi team ialah dari pelajar2 Brunei Darusalam. Bermakna 2 kali game wajib dihabiskan. Sepanjng perlawanan, saya mencuba yg terdaya. Tanpa latihan & persiapan, sy turun sbg 'Centre' berbekalkan ajaran guru zaman sekolah dahulu. Aduhh lama betul, ini betul2 pemain antik. ALah, belasah jer lahh. Rupa2nya, byk rules dah jauh berbeza. Bermakna, byk yg tdk diketahui. Patutlah kami nmpk cara adik2 ni bermain pelik sedkt berbanding style team ibu2 bermain. hadoiii. Apa2 pun, saya rs puas. Sgt puas , ibarat terlepas sudah dendam di dada. Netball ialah sukan saya. Saya minat sgt. Bila berada di padang, honestly, I always try to give my best. Pandai bermain? Tidak, saya tidak pandai bermain netball. Pemain hebat? Pun bukan, mmg sy bukan pemain yg hebat. Cuma saya ada minat yg tinggi thdp sukan ini. Saya fikir, suatu perkara yg kita sgt suka jika dilakukan dgn bersungguh2 akan menjadi terapi kpd kita. Sy rasa itu lah jwpn yg paling tepat jika ada yg pelik + hairan dgn 'kesukaan' thdp netball. Sblm hari match, byk kali org bertanya (or menempelak?) saya..'' Ehh kan tgn pernah injured sampai patah ms main netball dulu, masih nak main lagi?? Tak serik? Tak takut'' Ada segelintir rakan yg bertanya begitu. Pelik bg mereka. Saya pula, berasa pelik dgn pertanyaan yg keluar dari mulut mereka ini. Untuk makluman semua, ya, benar . Tgn sy injured, patah, dan menjalani operation utk dimasukkan besi. Tetapi, kini semuanya kembali normal. Saya tidak cacat spt yg anda harapkan. Tidak ada manusia yg menganggap kejadian sedemikian akan membunuh kecintaan mereka thdp satu2 perkara. Tidak , pda saya! Ahhh...mereka tak pernah hiraukan itu semua. Seperti biasa, manusia mudah jump to the conclusion dan membuat andaian sendiri. Haiiii laahh. Sehari selpas netball match pula, sy menghadiri temujanji dgn konsultan Lupus di Renal Clinic, Northen G Hosp. Kali ini sy maklumkan yg sy akan kembali ke tanahair for good therefore sy perlukan salinan rawatn spjg sy di sini sbg referral kpd konsultan di Malaysia. Dgn mudah, beliau berjanji akan menghantar by post clinical report ke rumah. Waaoow. Sgt mudah. No hassle. Jauh berbeza dibandingkan di Msia. Dos steroid diturunkan ke 1mg bermula hari ini. Dos yg paling rendah semenjak 18 tahun yg lepas. Jika semuanya ok, maka saya akan bercerai sgn steroid ini buat selama2nya. Waaaaaahh...Rasa ingin tahu membuak2. Ingin tahu bagaimanakah rasanya hidup ini tanpa perlu menelan ubat setiap hari :))) Wish me luck! Hari ini, ''tracking down to the memories'' current events hehe. Insyaallah, lain kali kita sambung lagi :) See you soon very2 soon. Take care.
Thursday, 24 March 2011
Tracking down the memories4
salam all
Sekrg ini musim bunga (spring) baru bermula. ini lah saat yang dinantikan oleh semua. suhu berubah ke 8-14C. cukup memuaskan ditambah dgn sinaran mentari. mmm..program outing mula diatur untuk memanfaatkan cuaca indah ini. bunga bunga kecil berwarna warni telah memunculkan kelopaknya yg berbagai bentuk. tidak perlu jauh, di tepi tepi jalan, kelihatan sungguh cantik dan berseri seri. Di waktu musim luruh dan musim sejuk, pokok2 bunga ini seolah2 lenyap. Dan kemudian di waktu musim bunga, pokok2 ini kembali mekar. Itulah kejadian alam yang unik. Syukur pada Allah swt.
Tracking the memories..
Kata orang, jauh berjalan luas pengalaman. Ini lah pengalaman saya berada di negara eropah yg mmpunyai 4 musim. Musim sejuk mencabar emosi dan kehidupan seharian. Suhu dlm -6 ke 2C. tempoh siang pkl 8-5pm. malah ada sehingga pkl 4pm shj. Selebihnya; gelap gelita. Untuk memanaskan badan, pemanas 'heater' dipasang di dalam rumah. Lagi lama dipasang, lagi tinggi bil gas perlu dibayar. Itu belum lagi untuk mengeringkan basuhan krn kami tdk mmpunyai dryer. Wabak penyakit musim sejuk adalah satu yang biasa. Demam winter mmg terrible. Tapi, tiada ubat krn dikatakan perkara normal. Waktu salji melanda, kelengkapan pakaian yg sesuai amat perlu. Snow hat, scarf, winter, gloves, welli boot, stokin yang tebal sgt penting untk mengelakkan kebekuan bila berada di luar rumah. Nasib baik saya mndpt suntikan flu jab, jadi kurang sikit efek winter trhdp badan.
Meredah salji lebat itu perkara biasa di sini. Ketika mengambil anak2 dari sekolah dan ketika di luar rumah mencari rezeki. Kadang kala, kaki tangan hampir numb dan beku. sakit.
Tidak sekalipun hati merasa kesal, bahkan merasa bersyukur krn berpeluang menepuhi pengalaman ini. Terutama ketika salji turun. Amat damai, tenang dan senyap. Tau tau, keliling rumah diselimuti salji putih bersih. Indah.
Ahhh...namun hati saya tetap merindui bunyi bising rintik rintik hujan menimpa bumbung rumah sewaktu di Malaysia!!
Till we meet again , see you soon, very very soon.
Sekrg ini musim bunga (spring) baru bermula. ini lah saat yang dinantikan oleh semua. suhu berubah ke 8-14C. cukup memuaskan ditambah dgn sinaran mentari. mmm..program outing mula diatur untuk memanfaatkan cuaca indah ini. bunga bunga kecil berwarna warni telah memunculkan kelopaknya yg berbagai bentuk. tidak perlu jauh, di tepi tepi jalan, kelihatan sungguh cantik dan berseri seri. Di waktu musim luruh dan musim sejuk, pokok2 bunga ini seolah2 lenyap. Dan kemudian di waktu musim bunga, pokok2 ini kembali mekar. Itulah kejadian alam yang unik. Syukur pada Allah swt.
Tracking the memories..
Kata orang, jauh berjalan luas pengalaman. Ini lah pengalaman saya berada di negara eropah yg mmpunyai 4 musim. Musim sejuk mencabar emosi dan kehidupan seharian. Suhu dlm -6 ke 2C. tempoh siang pkl 8-5pm. malah ada sehingga pkl 4pm shj. Selebihnya; gelap gelita. Untuk memanaskan badan, pemanas 'heater' dipasang di dalam rumah. Lagi lama dipasang, lagi tinggi bil gas perlu dibayar. Itu belum lagi untuk mengeringkan basuhan krn kami tdk mmpunyai dryer. Wabak penyakit musim sejuk adalah satu yang biasa. Demam winter mmg terrible. Tapi, tiada ubat krn dikatakan perkara normal. Waktu salji melanda, kelengkapan pakaian yg sesuai amat perlu. Snow hat, scarf, winter, gloves, welli boot, stokin yang tebal sgt penting untk mengelakkan kebekuan bila berada di luar rumah. Nasib baik saya mndpt suntikan flu jab, jadi kurang sikit efek winter trhdp badan.
Meredah salji lebat itu perkara biasa di sini. Ketika mengambil anak2 dari sekolah dan ketika di luar rumah mencari rezeki. Kadang kala, kaki tangan hampir numb dan beku. sakit.
Tidak sekalipun hati merasa kesal, bahkan merasa bersyukur krn berpeluang menepuhi pengalaman ini. Terutama ketika salji turun. Amat damai, tenang dan senyap. Tau tau, keliling rumah diselimuti salji putih bersih. Indah.
Ahhh...namun hati saya tetap merindui bunyi bising rintik rintik hujan menimpa bumbung rumah sewaktu di Malaysia!!
Till we meet again , see you soon, very very soon.
Monday, 21 March 2011
Tracking down the memories3
Salam
Beberpa bulan pertama kami di Sheffield, setiap satu pence perbelanjaan dikeluarkan berhati hati. Pertama, kerana risau duit kehabiasan sblm tiba elaun berikutnya (setiap 3 bln). Kedua, krn still blur cara berbelanja di sini. Saya masih ingat, untuk mengawal perbelanjaan, suami sering membelikan ikan besar yg dipotong kecil2. Dibeli dikedai muslim, dlm keadaan frozen. Byk tulangnya. Apabila berbual dgn rakan2 lain, mrk mengatakan tdk pernah makan ikan tersebut..hahar. sbnrnya ikan tu murah sgt, nak save budget, sbb tu ikan tu jdk pilihan.
Bhn mentah not bad di sini, malah lbh fresh dan healthy. Ayam merupakan lauk utama krn sgt murah. Ikan serta seafood dikelaskan mahal. Saya suka sayuran di sini, karot boleh dimakan begitu shj, begitu berbagai jenis salad.
Setiap hari aktviti utama ialah memasak. Bekalan gas sentiasa ada, maka saya mula bereksperimen dgn resepi pelbagai jenis makanan. Sememangnya saya suka memasak. Tidak mengatakan pandai memasak, ttp suka mencuba resepi2. Maka, byk lah pengalaman di dapur. Byk yg sy ketahui dan pelajari. Salah satu yg sy ketahui ialah,'' saya memang boleh memasak '' .
Sering kali saya suapkan ketiga anak anak saya selepas sekolah. tentulah kelaparan setelah seharian di sekolah dlm keadaan sejuk mcm ni. Bila dah disuap, mrk makan lebih sampai kenyang. Saya tidak perlu risau dah apabila anak2 kenyang dan sihat. Insyaallah, kesihatan mereka juga terjamin.
Setelah beberapa bulan, baru lah dpt menyesuaikan diri dgn keadaan di sini. dah tahu mana satu kedai yang murah. Mungkin secara kasar kehidupan kami dianggap mewah dibandingkan kehidupan di Msia, tetapi sebenarnya itu sudah standard kehidupan di sini. Jadi, kami mengikut shj.
Masalah kewangan sentiasa ada, maklumlah, hanya mengharapkan elaun sahaja. Namun, seboleh2 nya kehidupan tetap diteruskan untuk berlaku adil kepada anak anak. Mereka telah berkorban dan terpaksa menjalani kehidupan serba baru dan asing di sini. Saya tidak mahu anak anak ketinggalan dlm menjalani alam kanak kanak normal spt rakan2 mrk yg lain.
Sehingga kini, saya sudah mempelajari beberapa menu Barat. Selera anak anak nampknya lebih menjurus kpd western food. Mereka juga byk mengetahui perihal makanan barat. Seronok juga krn disini bahan2 nya bole didapati dgn harga yang murah.
Dgn menyibukkan diri dgn urusan rumahtangga, maka dpt lah sy menghiburkan diri. Sejujurnya, diri saya alah dgn cuaca ekstrim di sini. Hanya Allah yg mengtahui sukarnya sy menyesuaikan diri dgn cuaca dan waktu di sini. Bulan oktober cuaca mulai sejuk sehinggalah ke bulan April. Bayangkan lah..
Setakat ini dulu, berbicara lg di lain entri
See you soon, very very soon.
Beberpa bulan pertama kami di Sheffield, setiap satu pence perbelanjaan dikeluarkan berhati hati. Pertama, kerana risau duit kehabiasan sblm tiba elaun berikutnya (setiap 3 bln). Kedua, krn still blur cara berbelanja di sini. Saya masih ingat, untuk mengawal perbelanjaan, suami sering membelikan ikan besar yg dipotong kecil2. Dibeli dikedai muslim, dlm keadaan frozen. Byk tulangnya. Apabila berbual dgn rakan2 lain, mrk mengatakan tdk pernah makan ikan tersebut..hahar. sbnrnya ikan tu murah sgt, nak save budget, sbb tu ikan tu jdk pilihan.
Bhn mentah not bad di sini, malah lbh fresh dan healthy. Ayam merupakan lauk utama krn sgt murah. Ikan serta seafood dikelaskan mahal. Saya suka sayuran di sini, karot boleh dimakan begitu shj, begitu berbagai jenis salad.
Setiap hari aktviti utama ialah memasak. Bekalan gas sentiasa ada, maka saya mula bereksperimen dgn resepi pelbagai jenis makanan. Sememangnya saya suka memasak. Tidak mengatakan pandai memasak, ttp suka mencuba resepi2. Maka, byk lah pengalaman di dapur. Byk yg sy ketahui dan pelajari. Salah satu yg sy ketahui ialah,'' saya memang boleh memasak '' .
Sering kali saya suapkan ketiga anak anak saya selepas sekolah. tentulah kelaparan setelah seharian di sekolah dlm keadaan sejuk mcm ni. Bila dah disuap, mrk makan lebih sampai kenyang. Saya tidak perlu risau dah apabila anak2 kenyang dan sihat. Insyaallah, kesihatan mereka juga terjamin.
Setelah beberapa bulan, baru lah dpt menyesuaikan diri dgn keadaan di sini. dah tahu mana satu kedai yang murah. Mungkin secara kasar kehidupan kami dianggap mewah dibandingkan kehidupan di Msia, tetapi sebenarnya itu sudah standard kehidupan di sini. Jadi, kami mengikut shj.
Masalah kewangan sentiasa ada, maklumlah, hanya mengharapkan elaun sahaja. Namun, seboleh2 nya kehidupan tetap diteruskan untuk berlaku adil kepada anak anak. Mereka telah berkorban dan terpaksa menjalani kehidupan serba baru dan asing di sini. Saya tidak mahu anak anak ketinggalan dlm menjalani alam kanak kanak normal spt rakan2 mrk yg lain.
Sehingga kini, saya sudah mempelajari beberapa menu Barat. Selera anak anak nampknya lebih menjurus kpd western food. Mereka juga byk mengetahui perihal makanan barat. Seronok juga krn disini bahan2 nya bole didapati dgn harga yang murah.
Dgn menyibukkan diri dgn urusan rumahtangga, maka dpt lah sy menghiburkan diri. Sejujurnya, diri saya alah dgn cuaca ekstrim di sini. Hanya Allah yg mengtahui sukarnya sy menyesuaikan diri dgn cuaca dan waktu di sini. Bulan oktober cuaca mulai sejuk sehinggalah ke bulan April. Bayangkan lah..
Setakat ini dulu, berbicara lg di lain entri
See you soon, very very soon.
Friday, 18 March 2011
Tracking down the memories2.
Salam to all
Back to our early days in Sheffield.
It was in Auntum 2007, rainy days and five of us had no idea how the weather was going to change.
My three kids still at home. There was no telly and poor my kids they were so bored. Soon, my hubby went to the carrboot sale by bus to look for a telly. I still reember, it was raining heavily when he came back with a bulky telly.
I know it was hard for him to do that. But we didnt have much choice, we didnt own a car.
As we re told, no children are allowed to stay at home or the parents will be sent to police station for not sending them to school. Having known the laws, five of us went for looking a school nearest to our home. It was about 4 miles away. Since we hadnot yet own a car, so we just walked there as they say, ''it is just nearby''. It was not easy for the kids to end the searching thou. My youngest started to nagging didnt want to walk any further. Tired. After asking and asking for the direction, we finally gave up and decided to come back another day.
The next day we came by appointment to meet headteacher. Finally, we ve got our second boy in but not the eldest! There was no more place and he should go to another school. So how?
Then thats how the story go. My second finished at 3.10pm, and immediately after that I drove rushly to pick up his brother at the other school, about 5 mins driving. With the lil gal , who was almost 3 yrs-o that time plus the heavy traffic, it was miserable time for me. Alhamdulillah, i had never got into accident; and thanks to the classteacher who was very kind to look after my eldest boy while I was still on the road.
Thinking of all the difficulties and other factors as well, we decided to move out from the place so that my two sons can go to the same school, and my youngest will follow later on. On their last day, the whole classroom was in big grief to see my boy leaving. Such beautiful bonding..even the classteacher dropped her tears.
Anyway, it wasnt that easy to register both of them to the new school. Phone calls, appeal to the council and further discussion with the headteacher in order to convince them to let my boys in. Finally, everything settled down and the school is about 10mins walking from our new house.
A year later, we moved out again; to a house, the house we are living at the moment which is 3mins walking to school. Dah rezeki kami. For me, di sini sgt2 penting lokasi rumah dgn sekolah.
Thats all for now, will write more and more. See you soon, very very soon
Back to our early days in Sheffield.
It was in Auntum 2007, rainy days and five of us had no idea how the weather was going to change.
My three kids still at home. There was no telly and poor my kids they were so bored. Soon, my hubby went to the carrboot sale by bus to look for a telly. I still reember, it was raining heavily when he came back with a bulky telly.
I know it was hard for him to do that. But we didnt have much choice, we didnt own a car.
As we re told, no children are allowed to stay at home or the parents will be sent to police station for not sending them to school. Having known the laws, five of us went for looking a school nearest to our home. It was about 4 miles away. Since we hadnot yet own a car, so we just walked there as they say, ''it is just nearby''. It was not easy for the kids to end the searching thou. My youngest started to nagging didnt want to walk any further. Tired. After asking and asking for the direction, we finally gave up and decided to come back another day.
The next day we came by appointment to meet headteacher. Finally, we ve got our second boy in but not the eldest! There was no more place and he should go to another school. So how?
Then thats how the story go. My second finished at 3.10pm, and immediately after that I drove rushly to pick up his brother at the other school, about 5 mins driving. With the lil gal , who was almost 3 yrs-o that time plus the heavy traffic, it was miserable time for me. Alhamdulillah, i had never got into accident; and thanks to the classteacher who was very kind to look after my eldest boy while I was still on the road.
Thinking of all the difficulties and other factors as well, we decided to move out from the place so that my two sons can go to the same school, and my youngest will follow later on. On their last day, the whole classroom was in big grief to see my boy leaving. Such beautiful bonding..even the classteacher dropped her tears.
Anyway, it wasnt that easy to register both of them to the new school. Phone calls, appeal to the council and further discussion with the headteacher in order to convince them to let my boys in. Finally, everything settled down and the school is about 10mins walking from our new house.
A year later, we moved out again; to a house, the house we are living at the moment which is 3mins walking to school. Dah rezeki kami. For me, di sini sgt2 penting lokasi rumah dgn sekolah.
Thats all for now, will write more and more. See you soon, very very soon
Tuesday, 15 March 2011
Tracking down the memories.
Salam all
Just got my most awaiting item safely delivered by two guys from the factory. Ngeeee. like it. lovely. best quality.
As they got it settled next to the radiator, I noticed how they eyerolled around my small living room. A pile of packed boxes climbing up the ceiling and also the emptied display cabinet. O yes, we are leaving so what do you expect then....??
This place has left us many sweet and sour memories. In just about 3 and half years, I ve had been thru a gigantic moments, just name it; miserable, horrible, suspense, glorious and unexpectable moments. I will try to replay all the unforgetable days in this blog, i hope.
Getting my self to my consultant in NGH was one of the succeed i think. It was crucial, vital and my full responsiblity to list up my name to see the doctor. Hey, this is my first time ever abroad so it was obviously blurry I cant help. Blurr with the health system, blur with the languange, cultural and weather. Thanks god everything went well at last. Just ignore the ''excuse me'', ''pardon me'', ''can you please say it again''...bla bla bla.
I still remember, day 6th we were here, 1 Syawal came in. A big shock. It was at 8pm when we thot we should ring someone asking about Syawal. So, that was it. Were told that the next day was Raya. What I was thinking at that time? Nothing. It wasnt blurr. It was empty instead. Vacant.
That was what had happened during the first two weeks after we got here. Horrible? I dont know. I dont have the answer at the moment.
Will write more and more about our priceless days in Sheffield in next posts.
See you soon, very very soon.
Just got my most awaiting item safely delivered by two guys from the factory. Ngeeee. like it. lovely. best quality.
As they got it settled next to the radiator, I noticed how they eyerolled around my small living room. A pile of packed boxes climbing up the ceiling and also the emptied display cabinet. O yes, we are leaving so what do you expect then....??
This place has left us many sweet and sour memories. In just about 3 and half years, I ve had been thru a gigantic moments, just name it; miserable, horrible, suspense, glorious and unexpectable moments. I will try to replay all the unforgetable days in this blog, i hope.
Getting my self to my consultant in NGH was one of the succeed i think. It was crucial, vital and my full responsiblity to list up my name to see the doctor. Hey, this is my first time ever abroad so it was obviously blurry I cant help. Blurr with the health system, blur with the languange, cultural and weather. Thanks god everything went well at last. Just ignore the ''excuse me'', ''pardon me'', ''can you please say it again''...bla bla bla.
I still remember, day 6th we were here, 1 Syawal came in. A big shock. It was at 8pm when we thot we should ring someone asking about Syawal. So, that was it. Were told that the next day was Raya. What I was thinking at that time? Nothing. It wasnt blurr. It was empty instead. Vacant.
That was what had happened during the first two weeks after we got here. Horrible? I dont know. I dont have the answer at the moment.
Will write more and more about our priceless days in Sheffield in next posts.
See you soon, very very soon.
Sunday, 13 March 2011
Because I Love You.
Salam all
I ve noticed a new habit running down inside me lately.. shopping and shopping as if there is no tomorrow to come. Most of shoppings are to my kids, and a few for me.
Usually my eyes go widely to various of stores while walking home after work.
Shopping is the best therapy. Yes, it is. My thoughts are all for my kids. Doing shoppings for them are just a big relief. When I pay each of them by my all truly income, it is so therapeutic.. Not from anyone else pocket. That is what I call satisfaction.
My darlings;
Mama doesnt really have big money, but if anything I could do for you, I will do it without comprimise. I know we cant afford luxury things but I believe Allah will bless me for I ve done sincerely for you my darlings.
I will keep climbing up the tree and the sky no matter how hard it takes me to reach there. My inner power has had ignited since three of you come to my life. It has been emerging even more and becoming stronger day by day..
Mothers are always mothers.
Dear friends, for those who have child, no words can be able to describe the power of mother-will. It is infinity. It is a devotionial feeling. Reflection from mum's love.
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Till we meet again...see you soon..very very soon.
I ve noticed a new habit running down inside me lately.. shopping and shopping as if there is no tomorrow to come. Most of shoppings are to my kids, and a few for me.
Usually my eyes go widely to various of stores while walking home after work.
Shopping is the best therapy. Yes, it is. My thoughts are all for my kids. Doing shoppings for them are just a big relief. When I pay each of them by my all truly income, it is so therapeutic.. Not from anyone else pocket. That is what I call satisfaction.
My darlings;
Mama doesnt really have big money, but if anything I could do for you, I will do it without comprimise. I know we cant afford luxury things but I believe Allah will bless me for I ve done sincerely for you my darlings.
I will keep climbing up the tree and the sky no matter how hard it takes me to reach there. My inner power has had ignited since three of you come to my life. It has been emerging even more and becoming stronger day by day..
Mothers are always mothers.
Dear friends, for those who have child, no words can be able to describe the power of mother-will. It is infinity. It is a devotionial feeling. Reflection from mum's love.
.....................
Till we meet again...see you soon..very very soon.
Friday, 11 March 2011
Bus 10A
Salam all
Hari ini, jam 2 pagi saya sudah celik. Sememangnya saya harus bangun. Tempoh tidur mesti 7 jam, tidak kurang daripada itu.
Tetapi..malas, berat..
Akhirnya 3.50pagi baru lah segar untuk ke bilik air.
Semalamnya jam 7malam saya sudah masuk tidur..!!! Pengakuan ikhlas ni.
Pada siang semalam, selesai bertugas membanting tulang empat kerat, saya ke Tesco Infirmary Road. Impian perlu dilunaskan; menyediakan puding kastad jagung.
Dengan membawa 2 tin susu cair, 500ml santan, 300g tepung kastad, 500 g gula perang dan se pack bun, maka saya keluar ke bus stop 10A untuk pulang ke School Road. oh ya, dengan beg sandang yg berkerincing, dengan bunyi duit syiling menari nari di dalamnya. Namun menurut seorang yang sedang menunggu bus di situ, bus 10A baru sahaja pergi.
Tiada jalan lain kecuali menapak balik mendaki bukit ke rumah memandangkan bus 10A hanya setiap 1 jam.
Beberapa kali saya berhenti melepaskan lelah. Cuaca agak panas kpd saya yang mengenakan long coat. Hampir pitam dibuatnya melalui perjalanan yang sarat ini, sejauh 1.3 miles. Jika berkereta mengambil masa 5 min. Akhirnya setelah 40minit berjalan kaki, saya sampai di rumah dengan rasa syukur. Penatnya tidak terbayang. Lain lah jika berjalan berlenggang.
Selalunya saya berjalan tanpa muatan berat. Biasa sangat dengan laluan ini, cuma kali ini waktu tidak sesuai dengan jadual bus.
Setelah selesai membersihkan diri, saya mulakan acara masak memasak.
Puding kastad disejukkan di dalam peti ais.
Maafkan mama kerana masuk tidur awal hari ini.
Bangun pagi ini, puding kastad saya sudah sedia dimakan. Hilang sudah penat itu.
See you soon , very very soon.
Hari ini, jam 2 pagi saya sudah celik. Sememangnya saya harus bangun. Tempoh tidur mesti 7 jam, tidak kurang daripada itu.
Tetapi..malas, berat..
Akhirnya 3.50pagi baru lah segar untuk ke bilik air.
Semalamnya jam 7malam saya sudah masuk tidur..!!! Pengakuan ikhlas ni.
Pada siang semalam, selesai bertugas membanting tulang empat kerat, saya ke Tesco Infirmary Road. Impian perlu dilunaskan; menyediakan puding kastad jagung.
Dengan membawa 2 tin susu cair, 500ml santan, 300g tepung kastad, 500 g gula perang dan se pack bun, maka saya keluar ke bus stop 10A untuk pulang ke School Road. oh ya, dengan beg sandang yg berkerincing, dengan bunyi duit syiling menari nari di dalamnya. Namun menurut seorang yang sedang menunggu bus di situ, bus 10A baru sahaja pergi.
Tiada jalan lain kecuali menapak balik mendaki bukit ke rumah memandangkan bus 10A hanya setiap 1 jam.
Beberapa kali saya berhenti melepaskan lelah. Cuaca agak panas kpd saya yang mengenakan long coat. Hampir pitam dibuatnya melalui perjalanan yang sarat ini, sejauh 1.3 miles. Jika berkereta mengambil masa 5 min. Akhirnya setelah 40minit berjalan kaki, saya sampai di rumah dengan rasa syukur. Penatnya tidak terbayang. Lain lah jika berjalan berlenggang.
Selalunya saya berjalan tanpa muatan berat. Biasa sangat dengan laluan ini, cuma kali ini waktu tidak sesuai dengan jadual bus.
Setelah selesai membersihkan diri, saya mulakan acara masak memasak.
Puding kastad disejukkan di dalam peti ais.
Maafkan mama kerana masuk tidur awal hari ini.
Bangun pagi ini, puding kastad saya sudah sedia dimakan. Hilang sudah penat itu.
See you soon , very very soon.
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
He Always Help Me
Salam all
Last two days my head kept thinking to sort out four important urgent things to do.
As soon I settled on a bench in the mall on the next morning, I picked the phone dialed the number.
Hello, good morning, renal clinic.
me: hello , hiya. I ring to ask about my appointment date.
ok, wait a second, im gonna switch on the computer. it might takes u a while.
.............................sorry, im still waiting to the system to activate.
me: ok, thats fine. no worry.
ok, so, what s ur hospital number?....ok ok, is that Zalilah at 143, western road bla bla bla..
me: yes, rite.
ok, ur appointment will be on 28 of March at quater past 2. Do you want us to send a letter?
me: o yes, it will be helpful.
ok, we ll send u a letter then. bye,
me: bye, thank you very much.
tutttttttttt.
yeah, one task done. so easy. actually i had missed an appointment somewhere in January. Surprisingly, with just a phone call; they just gimme another appointment without hassle.(well, they had already set it for me or they just being efficient?).
Next was, went to the bank to settle the on-line-banking-log in- failure.
I was the second costumer walking into the bank. After trying thrice with assistance, I finally managed to securely log in.
Done!
then, off I went to look for something at the 50%-offer shop. Grab one much much worth to my money item and ran to tram station.
Two tasks succesfully done that day. Just two more things to do. To ring the furniture factory and ask them to deliver my item at least end of this month.
I thought I will do it after I finish my fourth task; my article writing...hmmmmm..
Today, while I was doing the writing, my phone rang.
Hello.? Is there mrs or mr kamarulzaki.?
me: yes, speaking.
hi, im calling from chesterfield. About your order from our factory, can we deliver it next week on Wednesday between 3 to 5pm?
me: o..? ok ok, no problem., ill be at home.
orite then. and how are you gonna to pay the remain of the price?
me: ok, ill pay it on the delivery. is that fine to you?
ok2. thank you. byee.
me: byeee.cheers!
pheww. So, the third and fourth tasks done today. I thot I was going to ring them..-:)
Sometime we under estimate our self. can i do that and that and that myself in hurry?
We often forget that He gonna help us, every second you ask Him.
Till we meet again , see you soon. very very soon.
Last two days my head kept thinking to sort out four important urgent things to do.
As soon I settled on a bench in the mall on the next morning, I picked the phone dialed the number.
Hello, good morning, renal clinic.
me: hello , hiya. I ring to ask about my appointment date.
ok, wait a second, im gonna switch on the computer. it might takes u a while.
.............................sorry, im still waiting to the system to activate.
me: ok, thats fine. no worry.
ok, so, what s ur hospital number?....ok ok, is that Zalilah at 143, western road bla bla bla..
me: yes, rite.
ok, ur appointment will be on 28 of March at quater past 2. Do you want us to send a letter?
me: o yes, it will be helpful.
ok, we ll send u a letter then. bye,
me: bye, thank you very much.
tutttttttttt.
yeah, one task done. so easy. actually i had missed an appointment somewhere in January. Surprisingly, with just a phone call; they just gimme another appointment without hassle.(well, they had already set it for me or they just being efficient?).
Next was, went to the bank to settle the on-line-banking-log in- failure.
I was the second costumer walking into the bank. After trying thrice with assistance, I finally managed to securely log in.
Done!
then, off I went to look for something at the 50%-offer shop. Grab one much much worth to my money item and ran to tram station.
Two tasks succesfully done that day. Just two more things to do. To ring the furniture factory and ask them to deliver my item at least end of this month.
I thought I will do it after I finish my fourth task; my article writing...hmmmmm..
Today, while I was doing the writing, my phone rang.
Hello.? Is there mrs or mr kamarulzaki.?
me: yes, speaking.
hi, im calling from chesterfield. About your order from our factory, can we deliver it next week on Wednesday between 3 to 5pm?
me: o..? ok ok, no problem., ill be at home.
orite then. and how are you gonna to pay the remain of the price?
me: ok, ill pay it on the delivery. is that fine to you?
ok2. thank you. byee.
me: byeee.cheers!
pheww. So, the third and fourth tasks done today. I thot I was going to ring them..-:)
Sometime we under estimate our self. can i do that and that and that myself in hurry?
We often forget that He gonna help us, every second you ask Him.
Till we meet again , see you soon. very very soon.
Tuesday, 8 March 2011
Sejuk Suam.
Salam all
Tulip sudah berbunga, daffodil pun sudah. Matahari memancar mancar pada suhu di bawah 10 degree. Melintas di belakang rumah jiran, aroma bbq terhidu. Menjelang petang, anak anak muda pelajar di kejiranan kami seronok berkumpul dan berborak sambil menikmati cuaca indah.
Apabila anak anak pulang dari sekolah hari ini, saya menjangkakan ada yang merengek lagi. Ingin dibawa ke park (taman permainan) berhampiran. Jika ia berlaku lagi hari ini, bermakna tiga hari berturut turut saya dan dia akan berjalan ke sana. Dia, si manja ku sayang .
Sungguh kini saya faham mengapa apabila musim berubah; terutamanya spring dan summer; serta merta fikiran ceria dan segalanya bersemangat. Seakan mendapat momentum yang terhebat setelah tergendala di rumah sepanjang winter. Momentum ini jelas kelihatan daripada perubahan gaya penampilan. Bebas tanpa jaket bulu yang tebal dengan warna kusam;hitam atau kelabu. Momentum ini juga jelas terlihat pada aktiviti harian; berjalan menyusur keluar dari rumah ke tempat tempat terbuka. Di taman taman; anak anak muda bersantai dengan 'terbuka'. Anak anak kecil pula berlari larian dan berharap petang tak akan berganti malam. Pada hujung minggu pula, aktiviti luar bermula seawal 6 pagi, ketika matahari memancar masuk ke tingkap bilik. Melepaskan kebosanan, tapak 'car boot sale' menjadi pilihan utama mencari barang barang bernilai sebagai koleksi.
Disebabkan semua ini tidak dapat dilakukan sewaktu winter; maka ketika musim bunga ini dan musim panas lah penduduk di sini melepaskan 'momentum' itu. Dan ia amat menyeronokkan.
Sesekali terlintas di fikiran, adakah saya ingin terus merasai momentum indah ini sedikit masa lagi? ataupun adakah saya lebih gembira dengan cuaca panas malar sepanjang tahun yang tiada memberikan apa apa momentum serupa?
Ahhh.
Sememangnya saya bersetuju dengan satu ini: hujan batu di negeri sendiri...
Till we meet again, see you soon. very very soon.
Tulip sudah berbunga, daffodil pun sudah. Matahari memancar mancar pada suhu di bawah 10 degree. Melintas di belakang rumah jiran, aroma bbq terhidu. Menjelang petang, anak anak muda pelajar di kejiranan kami seronok berkumpul dan berborak sambil menikmati cuaca indah.
Apabila anak anak pulang dari sekolah hari ini, saya menjangkakan ada yang merengek lagi. Ingin dibawa ke park (taman permainan) berhampiran. Jika ia berlaku lagi hari ini, bermakna tiga hari berturut turut saya dan dia akan berjalan ke sana. Dia, si manja ku sayang .
Sungguh kini saya faham mengapa apabila musim berubah; terutamanya spring dan summer; serta merta fikiran ceria dan segalanya bersemangat. Seakan mendapat momentum yang terhebat setelah tergendala di rumah sepanjang winter. Momentum ini jelas kelihatan daripada perubahan gaya penampilan. Bebas tanpa jaket bulu yang tebal dengan warna kusam;hitam atau kelabu. Momentum ini juga jelas terlihat pada aktiviti harian; berjalan menyusur keluar dari rumah ke tempat tempat terbuka. Di taman taman; anak anak muda bersantai dengan 'terbuka'. Anak anak kecil pula berlari larian dan berharap petang tak akan berganti malam. Pada hujung minggu pula, aktiviti luar bermula seawal 6 pagi, ketika matahari memancar masuk ke tingkap bilik. Melepaskan kebosanan, tapak 'car boot sale' menjadi pilihan utama mencari barang barang bernilai sebagai koleksi.
Disebabkan semua ini tidak dapat dilakukan sewaktu winter; maka ketika musim bunga ini dan musim panas lah penduduk di sini melepaskan 'momentum' itu. Dan ia amat menyeronokkan.
Sesekali terlintas di fikiran, adakah saya ingin terus merasai momentum indah ini sedikit masa lagi? ataupun adakah saya lebih gembira dengan cuaca panas malar sepanjang tahun yang tiada memberikan apa apa momentum serupa?
Ahhh.
Sememangnya saya bersetuju dengan satu ini: hujan batu di negeri sendiri...
Till we meet again, see you soon. very very soon.
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