a short luv note!

salam all,

dah lama tak menulis.
my komputer rosak, and it is school holiday plus urusan2 lain. kombinasi yg ideal ini makes me less time for writing.

one fine day, ill be back and insyaallah there will lot to share. ill try to grab 'this and his' computer whenever he is here at home ..hahar.

anyway, everything is just fine. short updates are always on my fb wall :)

see you (soon), very2 soon.

Packing Packing

Salam all;

I ve been starting to pack almost half our belongings into the well secure boxes. Yess, we are leaving. Hopefully in 2 months time we are already in our hometown.

While having this intensive packing and sorting jobs, I cant help smiling .. It is such a wonderful moment awaiting us. Going back home after about 3 and half year . Wow! What a feeling.

I also cant help from weird and funny questions from the children:

'' How we are going to go to school in Malaysia.? It gonna be very difficult becoz we ve already forgotten Malay Languange''
''Are we are gonna celebrate Raya in Malaysia'' (while sorting out the baju kurung)
'' Can we come back to England so I can tell my friends and teacher how Malaysia is ?''
''I cant wait to meet my grandma , it will be interesting''
''Shall we get some food in in the plane so we wont get hungry. We need to have lots of money mummy.''

Tthe most frequent question is '' when is exactly we go back ?''
And this is the most difficult to answer coz we havent got one, at the moment!

Im glad at last we come to this stage. At the same time I am in denial. Living abroad for this long is an amazing experience in my whole life. If I could translate my feeling, it would be: ''Joy''. Simple, but in my case there is a bundle of feelings hidden.

While doing the packing job, I am still looking for a lot more new things to do here. For I know I will never come back unless Allah make me to do so. I hope I can still have fun with friends and routine life. I will try..Oh yes I am.

Thats all for now friends.
See you soon, very2 soon. take care!

We are Complex Creature.

Salam to all

What a great day! Alhamdulillah. Sunshine is evidently seen over here and there. Happy faces every where!

When I was small, I used to look at the tiny granite stones which I found at roadworks in my village. It had simultaneously built up my interest in those kind of stones with varieties of colors. It sparks very beautifully under the rays of light. The combination of the unique shape and colors has made me fall in love until I realise that I wanted to be someone that live with the stone. My eagerness went up to the limit I hoped I would become a geologist one day;)

When I was in secondary school, I noticed my handwriting was too weird and scary compared to others. My ability to write a long passange in Languange subjects, Geography and History was just below the expectation. Few times I received reminders from the teachers regarding to the untidy handwriting. My reasons was; my hands went sweaty easily and as a result I cant hold the pen properly -:) Is it make sense., think so. In addition, those were the subjects I not keen on. Memorizing too much not good to me -:PP

When I was in form 5, then only I realised that my fond is in science subject. My calculating job in Mathematics also showed a great result. Maybe because these subject doesnt require long writing in classroom and during test and examination. And also I realised I am a logical person who seek for an evidence before I come up with any conclusion.

When I was in university, in science study of course; my interest went to the extent of exploring something to do with human behaviour. I also developed interest in art works such as painting, flower arrangement and doing some pattern skecthings. More than that, I keen to know more about phsycology and apparently I started to apply in my social life since then. With this informal knowlegde, I gained so many useful lessons whereby has helped me to observe people behaviour. The good thing is it could help in socializing without breaking my relationship with someone eventhough that person is annoying and distracting one because by doing observation one knows how to deal with that -:))
But somehow, sometimes i failed to do that when there was emotional collision inside :(

Anway, I admit that I have to pick only one of those interest to be my field expertise . At age 24 I managed to obtain MSc in Analytical Chemistry. I think I have successfully blended and employed all my capabilites during the research work process.

After I look carefully at my childhood, I finally got the answer why is that so many things inside my head. When I see it deeply, there can be classified in two different category. One group is more to technical, and another group falls into art thingy. Obviously, they can be distinguished clearly.
One of the reasons maybe because the ability to use both of side of our brain. Normally, people tend to use left side of the brain or single side only. But actually, we can practise to use the other side of brain as well. This will promote to expand your daily activities physical and mental. Not to mention, it will help you to become more versatile. Try to polish it and the it will shine and bright up your life.

At first my handwriting was a lefthand-writing until my late grandparents asked me to change to right hand. So, I can see here that I was originally lefthanded person until I began to learn to use right hand to do daily stuff. It was quite difficult at first, but gradually everything went very well. Later, not only writing, but I tried to use my right hand mainly, doing all kinds of things. Until now, I am able to use left and right hand and, automatically I can switch to the hand in certain situation. This indirectly generates both of the brain side to work equally. From what I experience I strongly believe we shouldnt ignore our ability that Allah give to all humankind. All we need to do is to practise and make it to work to maximum.


By the way, Im not saying that I am perfect just because I can use my both hands in daily life, nope nope nope. ....!!!!!!
This is only to correlate with what are the people out there have been talking about the miracles our brain can do.




And at the moment, back to my right brain; I m doing some informal research working on human behaviour. Trying to get a quick response from people around me from subject given to them. One of the medium is a famous internet application; FB. My objective is to see how people will response to a bad and good news (status) on my wall. There are few paramaters used. . The analysis depends 100% to the comments. I am happy with the result. The conclusion and the reslut will not enclose here for this is for my personal referrence only -:)

What ever it is, there is nothing wrong with people around me. Because I stand with this: nobody is perfect; including me. In fact there are good arguments, critics and condemn. From there, I can see how people try to justify their comments and how people try to calm down their ego whenever their comments are backfired.
Hopefully, by this way, I can improve my skill in human relationship and extent my circle of friends. Because human is so complex creature. Not only individually different but also special in their own way.

I believe there are so many people in this world who able to manipulate their brain totally. There are of course many more of their achievements I would like to know and Id like to copy.




Till we meet again, see you soon, very very soon.

Angin.

Salam to all.

Sepanjang malam tadi dan hari ini Sheffield seolah dilanggar taufan. Yg telah menyebabkan bunyi bunyian seram disepanjang malam. Juga bunyi bunyian spt ada benda tumbang yg agak kuat. Setelah diselidiki rupa rupanya tong sampah yg diletakkan di luar rumah tumbang dilanggar angin kencang lalu termuntahkan isinya. (Jumaat hari bin lorry visit :D). Juga bunyi bunyian yg menyebabkan tido kurreng lena; bunyi daripada daun pintu yg kejap tutup kejap terbuka tempias daripada angin kencang yg memasuki lubang2 tingkap.

Spt biasa jam 4.40am mata terbuka. Tapi, selimut tebal duvet pd mulanya kelihatan gagal utk diselak. Bagaimanapun, 20 min kemudian sy sudah berada di dapur; segar dan selamat utk memulakan tugas2 harian.

Kemudian, pintu rumah dibuka dan barulah terasa realiti suasana di awal pagi ini. Angin sekencang kencangnya, membawa bunyi deruan yg seram (ttp, pd sy tak der lah sampai kecut perut). Hujan sederhana lebat membasahi long coat, hendbeg serta high woolli boot saya. Langkah diatur; sekencang kencang nya. Apabila tiupan angin menyongsang arah langkah saya; terasa begitu sukar dlm setiap langkah itu. Kaki seolah ditolak ke tepi dan di tarik ke arah yg lain. Payah sungguh utk menapak. Sebaliknya, apabila tiupan angin selari dgn arah langkah saya, di bantu dgn keadaan muka bumi curam menuruni bukit, terasa saya kedua2 kaki terapung, perjalanan begitu deras seolah ringan saja anggota badan ini. Dan seperti mana biasa, badan mengeluarkan peluh menunjukkan setiap inci tubuh bergerak aktif mengambil bahagian dlm menjayakan ''Misi Perjalanan Pagi'' . Alhamdulillah.

Hari ini tiada kicauan burung yg menemani saya utk perjalanan 15 min ini. Selalunya, zikir2 saya sepanjang jln diiringi dgn kicauan burung. Hembusan angin pagi yg segar hari ini bertukar kpd edisi tiupan yg ganas, tetapi pada saya tetap mengasyikkan. Dgn gayanya, angin kencang ini memberitahu kita sesuatu, terutamanya kpd yg menghayati alam.


Angin itu sifat nya misteri. Tidak dapat dilihat, dipegang. Tetapi tenaga yg ada padanya mampu menggegarkan bangunan yg kukuh. Sebaliknya ketika ia bertiup lembut, mampu mendamaikan gelora di jiwa.


Till we meet again, see you soon. very2 soon.

Let your life alive !!

Salam to all.

Melihatkan keadaan rumah ini, mahu shj saya mengupah orang utk mengemas. Tapi, siapa agaknya yang mahu? Tugas beliau ialah memasukkan SEMUA barang2 KAMI yang mana diperlukan ke dalam kotak2. Haaa..siapa mau siapa mau, angkat tangan tinggi tinggi..

Masalah utama sebenarnya ialah : Di mana harus dimulakan? Bilik atas? bilik utama? ruang tamu? ruang makan? atau setor? Arghhh..hati ingin segera pulang ke Malaysia, tetapi urusan mengemas barang mesti ditempuhi dahulu. tak suka. tak suka.

Hujung minggu lepas saya mengambil bahagian dlm boling. Saya seorg yg suka bersukan. Ada beberapa jenis sukan yg mmg saya ketagih dgnnya. Walaupun selalu saya dengar kata kata sinis, tetapi saya yakin usia seseorg bukan penghalang. Apatah lagi mengetahui sy pernah kecederaan patah siku ketika bermain bola jaring dan mengetahui sy mempunyai Lupus; tetapi itu tidak bermakna anda harus pencen dari bersukan. Apa yg saya lakukan ini ialah setelah mendapat nasihat dan doktor. Walaubagaimana pun , sy tidak hairan dgn kata2 itu;kerana mereka tidak mengalami apa yg saya alami. ..Sebenarnya, suatu mitos jika mengatakan org spt saya patut mengelak diri dari bersukan.

Ada juga yg sihat tubuh badannya mengelak dari bersukan kerana takut pada kecederaan. Aduhhh..di dapur, di sekolah, di dalam bus d dimana2 saja bole berlaku kemalangan itu. Saya teringat pd event boling yg lepas, segelintir daripd sahabat disini agak keberatan utk mengambil bahagian krn takut tangan nya terkehel. Takut urusan study mereka terganggu katanya esp yg sedang 'writing up'. Kesian sungguh saya kpd mereka... krn anggapan itu amat lucu!!. Hey. Jgan sekali2 menipu diri sendiri, teruskan hidup seperti biasa krn kita manusia yg bijak tentunya meng ''adjust'' diri sendiri mengikut situasi :))) Waktu itu, kejadian saya terjatuh sewaktu bermain bola jaring baru shj berlaku. Saya mengaku kemalangan itu boleh dianggap ''tidak sepatutnya ''berlaku. Kerana kedegilan kami tidak mengambil langkah yg bijak itu tetap mahu meneruskan permainan di gelanggang basketball yg dibina dari konkrit yg keras.

Lesson always to be learnt, ok...

Bowling tournament sepanjang 2009.

Foto yg pertama ialah sebulan slps casting ditgn kiri dibuka. Lihat, saya membaling menggunakan tangan kanan, (krn sy lefthanded). Hasilnya not bad. Selpas kecederaan tgn kiri, baru lah sy tahu tgn kanan sy juga berupaya melakukan byk benda -:) Hikmah dari kejadian Allah.

Bowling 2011. Asalnya utk winter 2010, dibw ke dpn Jan 2011.

Hadiah boling. Spt biasa hadiah berupa brgan dapur Pyrex, atau Luminarc :).

Anak2 saya confuse dgn hadiah ini, katanya..'' should be trophy or medal instead''. Yg ni ni bkn hadiah katanya.

Foto sewaktu tournament sukan Helwa yg pertama pd 2008 di mana saya ditugaskan utk mengurus perjalanan sukan ini tidak ada dlm simpanan! Sedihnya!! Namun sgt gembira krn penat lelah terbayar apabila semua games berjln sprt yg dirancang dan mendpt maklum balas yg menggembirakan. Ketika itu sy menguruskan 40peserta dlm acara netball dan 40 peserta juga dlm acara boling. Lbh manis lg, dlm acara boling sy mendpt jatuhan pin tertinggi dan dinobatkan sbg Ratu Boling. Sungguh tak sanga krn dlm kesibukan itu (netball d boling diadakan pd hari yg sama), sy tetap fokus sewaktu balingan. Utk netball pula, pasukan saya mendpt tmpt ke2 dari 4 pasukan. Alhamdulillah.

Apbla sy mendaftarkan nama dlm setiap acara, tiada menyimpan niat yg menggunung utk menang atau membawa balik hadiah, krn sesungguhnya sy beranggapan acara sebegini mempunyai agenda yg terlebih penting dari itu ; iaitu menikmati saat2 indah bersama serta mengeratkan silaturahim. Tanya lah pd ahli sepasukan yg pernah bersama saya, sy selalu menyatakan pd mrk; apabila bermain, lapangkan lah dada, fokus dan bergembira lah. Dgn nya, anda akan sentiasa berasa kemenangan itu milik anda hingga ke hari esoknya dan selamanya :)

Kenangan indah bersama kawan2 ini di Sheffield sentiasa manis di ingatan.

Apabila sy kembali ke tanah air nanti; kenangan itu bakal menjadi semakin manis.

Tiba2 teringat.. sudah sekian lama saya tak bermain netball. Kali terakhir kira2 sebulan selps operation tgn yg cedera itu pd 2009. Rindunya !!!!!!

See you soon, very2 soon. Take care!