Day 1

Salam to all
Day 1 in ward:
Early in the morning, an investigation took place by a group of doctors on my health condition. It was leaded by a neurologist, accompanied by 3 other doctors. I think they were doktor pelatih or doktor muda, err..from how they handled the investigation. Not forgetting a short physical check on certain part of my body. Next were urine test, blood test and a few more tests. As I said previously, I was in terrible pain so they prescribed me a few types of tablets as I developed high fever, anaemia and hypertension as well. Pening, berdenyut2 di bahagian kepala yang amat sgt seolah2 urat kepala digetus2 tidak berhenti. Every time I stepped on even to go to toilet, it became even more painful. Then, bila check blood pressure; doctor said it was too high for a young lady like me, reached almost 200mmHg. I was about 19 at the time. So, it was Hypertension.

Taking tablets and other medications was a new routine for me. I was waken up in every hours whenever I needed to consume as stated on the prescription. Nurses in the ward did their good job. I was served with special menu..no salt at all..no protein..hihihi. Makan jer spt biasa. Just supaya ubat dpt dihazam. Ada hari perlu berpuasa untuk persediaan ujian tertentu. Sebenarnya, tekak sudah seakan hilang fungsi. I was not able to taste manis, masam or tawar even masin. Semuanya terasa pahit dan pahit. Kenapa ?? Kerana terlalu byk ubat dan tablet yang masuk ke kerongkong. Pernah sekali sehingga 30 biji pil sehari. Alhamdulillah, I manage to go through this hard task with open heart. Apabila kesakitan itu berada di tahap maksimum, u won't care what are they going to do with you. That's very true.

Sewaktu kali sesi lawatan olh doktor, biasanya sebelah pagi, saya cuba memahami perbincangan mereka. tentula kita sendiri hendak tahu apa yang sedang berlaku. Tetapi hasil penyiasatan masih belum mereka dapat keluarkan. Kata mereka, perlu sisatan lanjut. Perlu lebih banyak blood test di lakukan. Ubatan juga perlu diubah sukatannya. Maknanya, akan ada hari hari yang seterusnya utk saya berada di wad. Ok, I'll stay. Semuanya ok, cuma tak tahan melihat lengan kiri dan kanan..Seperti drug addict; lebam sana sini kesan injection utk blood test.

Dearest friends;
Insan terbahagi kpd beberapa golongan. Iaitu yang pertama, golongan yg dambakan total kesempurnaan, kejayaan, kemewahan dan bebas dari penderitaan. Kalau boleh, dihidarkan dari keperitan hidup dan yg ingin dilalui ialah diulit keceriaan setiap saat. Kebanyakan kita berpendapat, itulah yang harus digenggam untuk mencapai erti kebahagian yang sebenarnya.

Golongan lain pula berpendapat ialah, sekiranya kita tidak melalui proses ujian dlm hidup ini, maka kita tidak dapat mengerti, menilai, menghargai dan menikmati erti kebahagian yang sebenar-benarnya. Ujian yg hadir dlm hidup mesti dilalui dgn berani, sabar, berusaha dan tawakkal. At the end of the day, timbul satu lagi nikmat dari ujian yg diturunkan kpd kita yg tidak dialami oleh golongan yg pertama tadi; iaitu pengalaman.

Allah telah mengaturkan alur kehidupan insan sejak di Luh Mahfuz. Samada ianya berbentuk keperitan atau kebahagian, itu semua adalah ujian hidup. Lalainya manusia apabila hanyut dgn kegemilangan hidup, lalainya manusia juga kerana tidak berupaya mempertahankan iman utk menghadapi keperitan hidup.

Till we meet again, I wish u the best of weekend ahead. Sheffield will gonna hv sunshower thruout the weekend as predcited. It's a good time for a family day out;maybe.. Ok, thank you for popping in..See u soon, very very soon.